This is a late start on a resolution, but hopefully one i will stick with, with 352 days left it means im only about 4 per cent in violation. Now that the compliance mumbo jumbo is out of the way let me get to the list.
Things to do in 2009
1)Blog my ideas…i don’t mean the ones that are for work or the ones that suck, i mean my ideas. I come up with a million of them and at best i share them with one maybe three people. Usually the people i share them with really like them, but thats not per se a good sampling, nor does it give me the feedback or the criticism that i need to see which are good and which are eh. I’ve been meaning to blog regularly for a while now and this year i am gonna do it.
2) Monetize and socialize my tech habits… i am not a tech guy, i don’t know how to program, and i can’t develop new solutions(but then again that is not as hard as it used to be)…but i am pretty good at using the cool tools that others have made available. Instead of just aimlessly testing in the ether and forgetting about it two weeks later i am going to catalog, promote, write about and keep track of the stuff i find. Ok thats part a. Part B is to do more than browse to the site and play around with the free trial. I know the difference between wordpress and blogger, between wikispaces and google sites, between SaaS and cloud computing but other than in occasional outbursts i never use it. So instead of spending all night playing with cool new SaaS apps I’m going to use these skills to help create social change and perhaps more importantly to make money. Plenty of people are doing this i know, but i know my fields well enough that i can help hardworking people find the tools that are useful to them and to the broader course of social enterprisese. I am not trying to get bill gates rich, but it would be nice if i got something out of it…more to come.
3) Get in touch with old friends, new friends, and friends i never knew i could have. This year brought a major change in my life, for the first time in more than a decade and a half i have gotten away from debate, i miss it terribly, but i like what the world has to give and i want to see what my old friends are up to. For too long i sacrificed those relationships as well as the ones with my family to what at the time was a greater good. 6 months on the outside of a world where i didn’t need to have friends because i saw people i had known for decades every weekend has left me realizing how much of a void that can create in your life. I want to know what my friends do on a tuesday night, what they love, what they think about, and what troubles them, not just how their teams are doing or what they do on sunday morning. It is really a process of learning how to socialize again, and i must say it has been painful, but i think its a process worth engaging.
4) Be Healthy… Plain and simple eat right, sleep right, stop smoking and go to the gym…there are for sure somethings i am forgetting but the point is i need and want to be healthy.
5)Commit to education…I need to get back in school, i have done quite a bit without a degree but that is not a reason to not get one, nor is it not a reason to go to grad school. For the longest time i have celebrated the success i have achieved despite having a degree but i am ready to see what can happen when i erase that obstacle. All of that aside i like learning, years on the margins of academic labor have left me bitter about the academy, but its not really the academy i have been bitter about its my lack of inclusion. In other words its not the academic labor i dont like its the marginal aspect of that. This leads me to two distinct choices 1)change the academy so that i can have a viable career in it or 2) Finish my BA. I have been remarkably successful at option number 1 but i think i am going to go with number 2.
6)Do something with politics… I read political blogs, i follow the news, i talk about my ideas but i dont really feel like i do something. I used to go protests, and meetings and stuff and i am not sure i like that. It seems like these days my 1) 2) 3) and 5) means i need to write what i think down, engage in debates, think about what i have to say and start saying it. Yes. I am going to become a political blogger. At least edebate will be happy i am leaving them alone. I’m not gonna do it every day, not that promise yet…but for someone who comments on as much stuff as i do to not have a political blog makes me so like 2001…but this is not as trite as it sounds. The response of the doctrinaire would be…ok but get out from behind the computer and into the streets….first of all this is kind of insulting to the street, but aside from that bloggers (as this election proved)have been given societal permission to speak not just from behind the computer screen but on the public screen and in the public square and in the bars and coffeehouses all around the world. Now that of course means that millions of people around the world are doing it and its tougher to do than ever, but i think i can do it and its as good a job as anything else right now.
7) Connect with the family.. I am now friends with my mom on facebook…and my little brother and i talk on aim…and facebook…but that’s not all i mean, as i have gotten older i have come to recognize the people my family is (as opposed to the role they play) and i love it. Its pretty much the best aspect of my life over the last two years, and i wish i hadn’t ignored it so long. Though i think that it wouldn’t have been the same if that engagement had begun when i was much younger, i just don’t think i was honest enough with my self to be able to be me in front of my family. I know who i am more now and i know who they are better, its nice how that works.
8)Finish Things or don’t start them if you cant… If there was an Olympics for people who start things they dont or cant finish then i would be Michael Phelps. I don’t think i am going to correct this all this year, but i need to make a start at it. The ideas i have and start are good enough that they get people who have faith in them interested and then committed, and then i lose interest, and am hugely stressed when my friends are let down by my overstrecthedness(the direct effect of starting too many things). There are a lot of things i dont like about myself, but this may be the number 1 thing to figure out for me to be successful. Maybe its time for Ritalin, but that alone is not the answer, the answer is learning how to see things through to the end.
9) Strangely is don’t be so hard on me… I am the most self critical person i know, i over-think just about everything and i am not willing to see the good things i do, when the bad ones get in my head…then i become paralyzed by my own thoughts. I need to be nicer to myself, love who i am and work to get better at the parts that i need to work on. Knowing ones self should be to love ones self.
10)Don’t make lists that are all inclusive…I couldn’t resist a self referential joke…Lists can be the friends of organization or they can be the mechanism for diverting from getting organized. If your list has 200 things on it and you add 20 a day while getting rid of 10 you are only going to convince yourself that you are far more stressed than you are. Some days i will spend so long making lists that i forget where half of the info is by the end of the session…no doubt it is a good way to think through everything….but stuff you don’t need a list to remind you of…cash paycheck…for example shouldn’t be on a list. For people who like lists and like cool web aps could literally drive themselves crazy with to-do lists…i love my 30 box list, but when what i do with my free time is create new lists of stuff i have to do either i am overstretching or i am not describing tasks very efficiently or i am way to busy and need to start delegating some. Lists are good, but they should be the things you want to remind your self of not every verb related to your work and your life i can think of.
So to not make this list disappear into the graveyard of my ideas i will need people to remind me…i am sure i can find something that will send me an rss and sms feed every day to remind but what i would prefer is if those of you who know and like me would remind me from time to time of the things i say. If you see me being to hard on myself let me know, if i am starting ideas that i cant finish send me the link to this post. if you never read another blog post on this page.tell me…see how this works…and if i see yours here or on facebook or elsewhere i’ll let you know….i wont be a nag about it but ill remind you, if you have moved past that resolution then so be it, but if we know what each others wants and needs are we are all more likely to be happy.